Life's Lessons

Teach me to smile
I've forgotten the way
Teach me to speak
What can I say?
Show me your god
To whom I've never prayed
Be with me
No one else has stayed
Strengthen my heart
For it is tattered and frayed
I would learn to love
If you let me, if I may
And if I learn to live
How much must I pay?
Will you take my life?
And lay it on a silver tray
And if I take your hand
Will we be o.k?
Or will you fight
And keep me away
Will you teach me to love?
Or keep my feelings at bay
Should I be with you?
At night and in the day
Or should I do what you say
And stay so far away

 

Black Inevitability

Every thing I touch goes black
Dark as pitch, color never to come back
Day dies and is replaced by night
Light is drained and pulled out of sight
As far as I can see there is no light to follow
No moon to let off a silvery glow
No sun to announce the beginning of tomorrow
Life vanishes and death is what replaces
Vibrancy and joy are stolen
And all that's left are empty spaces
His voice gives fear
His eyes blood red
He knows not love
But lives in hate instead
What is he to others?
He is their demise
He is what kills on a moonless night
The tears that they cry
Who else can put themselves in my place?
Who else can stare into deaths cold hard face?
Whether or not you want to
Let your mind unbend
For you know as well as I do
That your life will inevitably end.

 

I Can Cry

Can you not see me?
My eyes are filled with tears
Can you not hear me?
Iv been crying all these years
I guess I've hidden it inside
Pushed it as deep as it can go
I guess I'm a pretty good actress
And never let it show
I'm afraid they see me weak
For just a single moment of the day
I'm afraid they see the little girl
Not the bitch that's tough in every single way
Only a select few have ever seen at my worst
Very few people have ever seen me cry
I apologize to those
They are not your problems, but mine
But as strong as I look
I have so many fears
And as tough as I seem
I've shed too many tears.

 

Blank

It all piles up
Sadness, pain
Hunger for love
Fed by hate
Surrounded by corpses
Physically alive
Their souls are dead
Sheep followers
The norms
They will live their lives
Be happy
Have a family
And have a car, a house
Lots of money
But when they get to the end
And ask them selves
What have I accomplished?
Their minds will be black
Clean slate
A canvas doomed to stay
blank

Glitter Goth

Black on black
With butterfly clips
Sparkles on my eyes
With blood red lips
All in all
I'm just a kitten
Cute as hell
But don't get bitten
I can fall in love
Every other day
But with their minds
I will play
I will get my revenge on those with merit
But I'm fair
They'll have to deserve it
Firefly bright
Or quiet as a moth
I'm incomprehensible
The Glitter Goth

Between and Beyond

Beyond good and evil
Beyond black and white
Between hell and heaven
Out of our sight

To only love or to hate
It is all the same
Pure action and reaction
With only you to blame

Is there a tolerable gray
Between happy and sad
Can any one point out the line
Between genius and mad

Must you really die
To know the meaning of life
And to truly understand joy
Must you have experienced strife

Heart of the Beast

Recognized my daemons
Identified my fears

Attempted to rise towards the gods
But fell upon deafened ears

Enveloped by the abominations teeth
As they tightly surrounded me

The venom burnt
As I landed in its putrid belly

Swallowed me whole
Made of me a feast

I staggered, but never lost hope
As I headed for the heart of the beast

Some moment seemed dark
With no hope for a future

But whatever doesn't kill you
Can only make you stronger

We used to know each other
Like the back of our hands
You were always beside me
When I got the courage to make a stand
But now you don't know me any more
My face is that of a stranger
You make my fragile heart sore
To see you every day, makes the hurt stronger
What took the memory away?
What ripped it from your brain?
Why couldn't I have stayed?
Instead of being thrown into pain
I know what is in the past
Must be left behind
But we were there to last
I was right there by your side
But you don't know me any more
You've pushed me from your life
You have thrown me to the floor
And harshly slammed the door
But you don't really matter
Because I don't know you anymore.